Journaling: Public and Private. Fears of Backsliding.

Hey there everyone. First, I want to say that if you’re not following my Facebook page you are missing out on some of my smaller updates. This brings me to the topic of this post: Journaling!

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Part of my goals this year were to start journaling more and more frequently. Now, you may not be seeing all this journaling because a lot of it is just for me. I also have a somewhat high standard of what constitutes a full blog entry or is fine for just a quick facebook post. I’ve been utilizing my facebook page more and more often lately for my Primal Fatso stuff because a lot of times I only have something for a quick few sentences or just a picture and a caption. For me to want to write a full blog post like this, I feel like I need at the very least a few paragraphs. My concern is that if I don’t blog consistently that I’ll just up and stop again (which you’ve all seen me do over time). Public journaling helps keep me in check with myself in some instances. Especially with my health goals. I don’t want this to become a grind or a job though. Using facebook helps me stay connected with my goals and when I have enough thoughts on a subject, it might turn into a blog post.

Private journaling, on the otherhand, is also something I find myself doing more and more. I’ve found that talking about things with friends and family sometimes brings up questions I might have about myself and why I am the way I am. So I’ll scribble a few notes down in Google Keep about my emotions or what’s happening to bring to therapy to discuss. Sometimes I dig in myself and think about it. It’s been extremely helpful lately for me. I’m hoping that by continuously journaling, seeking therapy and talking openly with my wife and friends, I can help to stay on the best path for myself.

Backsliding is my biggest concern in my life right now. Some days I get going into a great mind set for my health and my relationships and it just slowly dies off over time. I think journaling and consistent therapy will help with that. Setting goals that we consistently can measure with metrics helps as well and making sure to have a goal check-in is important also.

I feel like I’m doing pretty well right now. My biggest health obstacles are: consistently cooking and eating healthy meals and exercise. Sometimes it’s hard to get both right every week while also getting other goals done (like spending time with my family, spending time alone with my wife, spending time on myself, doing chores, etc…). Exercise and cooking regularly are always the first things to fall to the wayside. I’m aware of that and I have the metrics to prove that it’s a challenge.

That’s where I am right now, mentally. Physically, I’m still pushing myself. Still trying to get my eating under control. Started riding my bike again instead of driving to the train. Need to up my exercise to at least 3 trips to the gym a week. Feeling like I can do this still. Just need to make sure I don’t stop and I keep trying and when I feel like stopping, I find out why I’m trying to stop myself.


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