Category Archives: Appearance

1 Year Off Paleo. The Battle to Get Back to 215 and Eventually Less.

Remember last June when I said I needed a kickstart? Let me tell you what happened next.

In July of 2012 I’d mentioned that I was under a lot of stress and needed AN INTERVENTION. Work was causing me a lot of stress. There were tons of things going on around the house. I was barely making enough money to get by. Working out remains a problem. I did get a bike and I sorted that all out but I don’t use it enough. I really killed myself when I said that the Paleo Adventure is over. That’s when things went bad. I’d started playing hockey but the summer season is sporadic.

Then there’s just the summer malaise in general. I did NOT survive this summer well. I went to parties and gorged on food and drink. I ate out with little regard for health and finances. It was bad. Even this past weekend was a mess of bad food choices but good times. Now I’m 240lbs again. October 2012. The last time I was that heavy. It took 2 months to drop to 230. It took another 1 month to drop to 225lbs. It took me a little more than a MONTH to go from 229 to 240… This is the sad reality of life. 3 months to lose weight that can be put back on in 1.

Here I am in a burger eating contest this summer... No, those aren't gluten free... I came in 2nd... (photo courtesy John Andrews @ socialpalatesphotography.com/)

Here I am in a burger eating contest this summer… No, those aren’t gluten free… I came in 2nd… (photo courtesy John Andrews @ socialpalatesphotography.com)

So, what’s next? Well a few things have changed in my life. I’ve gotten a new job that doesn’t feed me breakfast and lunch daily. They do have a lot of ‘snacks’ but none that are good choices. They do have some nuts and fruit, but that’s about it. I’m surrounded by food choices, but most aren’t paleo/primal. I’m making more money, so that stress is alleviated a little. They pay for a fitness plan, which means I can’t claim that I can’t afford to go the gym. I go in later which leaves more time in the morning as well to go workout. So I just have to get off my lazy ass and go do it.

I need to find a new way of life that is like my old paleo way of life. I need to prepare for things better. I need to change my mindset. This is a new adventure. My family needs to work towards a goal. A reward of some sort. Perhaps we need another Disney Adventure. We need harder, stricter goals to reach if we want to get there. We need to find a way to keep to a goal AFTER the fact as well. I need to be more active. I need to get my mind around being in control again. I need to just stop what I’m doing now and do the right thing NOW.

Here are the numbers for this new starting point:

240lbs.

Squeezing into my 36x32s.

Large shirts are tight.

On belt notch 2.

Measurement update

So, I had forgotten to update my measurements

Starting Weight – 300lbs (5/28/12)

Starting Stomach – 54″

Starting Pant size – 44-46×32

Starting Chest – 53″

Current Weight – 218lbs (7/11/13)

Current Stomach – 43″

Current Pant Size – 36×34 (loose)

Current Chest – 43″

Lost 82lbs and 11″ off my stomach, chest and waist.

Also, according to my wife, I’d be wearing a 44B bra… so that’s good… I guess?

I haven’t hit that magic 215, but I look and feel a lot slimmer after this month. I’ve been needing to really talk my way through cravings though. I’m doing a pretty good job, but there are lapses.

That said, I wish the person who borrowed my copy of  The Primal Blueprint would return it… because I’m feeling like I need an update. If you’re reading this PLEASE RETURN IT… or at least pick up your phone…

1 Year of Paleo: What’s next?

As I stated in my last post, I’ve fallen off the wagon a bit. I feel like I can directly attribute this to my lack of posting and updating here. I’m feeling less accountable because I feel like I don’t need to impress upon anyone anymore. The problem is, that’s what keeps me going. I like driving towards a goal for the enjoyment of others. So that is what I’m going to do. Starting today, I’m going to be more accountable for what I eat, I’m going to take on new challenges, perhaps even user submitted challenges. My goal is to be as fit and healthy as I can be by next year. That means: more exercise, better control over what I’m eating, more strict guidelines to follow.

My wife and I have been discussing the ‘one hour cheat’ to satisfy any real cravings. We’d heard about this before, but thought it was pointless. The idea is that once a month, for one hour, you can eat whatever you want. Now, the silliness comes from the idea that you would gorge yourself like a pig in a trough. The reality is that what we’d LIKE to do is use this time to go have a dinner out someplace and not care if there’s a little soy in it or if we have something that may have some grains in it. I’m not planning on going to a buffet and tipping back the fucker into my open mouth.

My revised weight goal is going to be 210lbs. That’s a loss of about 20lbs from my 1 year anniversary on primal. I was doing better when I was accountable to my readership and I need to remain accountable to myself. I need to get a hold of my brain and say “STOP THAT! STOP THINKING IT’S OK TO EAT THAT SHIT! STOP BEING STUPID!” It actually works… and I do actually say that to myself. Sometimes I just need to walk through the kitchen and say to myself over and over “You’re not hungry, your’e not hungry” because I’m not… I just want to eat because I’m in the kitchen.

Other goals are appearance based. I’d like to be flat chested and flat bellied by next year. That means I need to come up with a workout regiment that works with my current schedule. I wake up at 5 to get for work, so early morning workouts aren’t really available. I get home at 530pm, so there’s time there for workouts at the end of the day if I can keep my brain energized to push through it. Even if it’s just a 1 mile run, that’s only 10 minutes or so… and I can do it. I glazed over it in my retrospective, but I finished 2nd overall in a 1 mile trail run in the rain (actually 1.2miles in 11:39)

I’m going to do this. I have it in me, and I know my wife wants it for herself too.

Here’s my starting points for Year 2

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Starting Weight – 229lbs

Starting Pant size – 36×32

Semi-Naked Truth after the cut

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1 Year of Primal: A Retrospective

Summer 2010

Summer 2010

Throughout this retrospective, I’ll be linking to pertinent milestones in my path. First, if you haven’t read it lately, get to know me as I started this.

Read More – About Me

I weighed 325lbs at my worst. Wore a 46-48″ pant and 3XL shirts. I had high blood pressure and no energy. I’d tried lots of diets with little to no success or will to stick to it. Sustainability of a diet was nil.

I started this journey the day after Memorial Day of 2012 (May 29, 2012). The weekend of Memorial Day was my friend’s bachelor party. Prior to leaving for it I weighed in at 300lbs even (May 25, 2012). After a solid weekend of drinking and not a lot of eating, I came home and weighed in at 297lbs on May 29th. We were off to the races with the Primal Blueprint. We chose the Primal Blueprint because we’d heard it was the best way to get into a primal lifestyle.

Read More – Life Changes and Moves Forward

3 days of Primal, 8 lbs down!

3 days of Primal, 8 lbs down!

I had a lot of hope with this diet, but I was concerned about sustainability. I was afraid I wouldn’t be able to afford it or that the food would be crap or that my wife would give up on all the hard work in the kitchen or that sticking to it at work would be difficult. In the above post I outlined my goals.

  1. I want to be able to get out of the shower, look in the mirror and not go “Yecchhh…”
  2. I want to be able to run for a whole mile.
  3. I want to be able to ride a bike without flattening the tires.
  4. I want to be able to buy clothes at the mall and not from the Fatso catalogs.
  5. I want to be able to keep up with my kid as he gets bigger and faster

Here’s my updates as of today

  1. This is getting better. I’ve still got a lot of loose skin, but my gut is smaller, my tits are smaller, I’m not quite so wide and I can see my penis again. So that’s nice.
  2. On May 25th, 2013 I competed in a ‘miler’ run and finished 2nd overall!
  3. I can do this now. I weigh less now than I did when I bought the bike in 1996.
  4. I am now buying clothes at regular stores without digging through the rack for that lone pair of 40-somethings
  5. I can keep up with my 4 year old now, but he’s still got a ways to go and this will be ever evolving.

I decided very early on that I would blog about this adventure and if I was going to do it right, I needed to be honest with myself and my readers. I didn’t expect a lot of readers, but I figured I’d start with the ‘Semi Naked Truth’ Articles where I would put myself out there on display. Read More – The fat, (semi) naked truth [the post]. I knew there would be a lot of challenges on this adventure, mostly food related. It took the constant repeating of “don’t eat that, don’t eat that” to get past it, but it was working. I wrote a lot in June because everything was so new and interesting. My brain was still part fatso so I had that ability to remember how awful I ate and apply it to what I was eating now. The weight was coming off pretty steadily, to my surprise. I wasn’t really exercising all that much and I’ll admit that even now exercising is still a problem. Read More – Exercise ArticlesAfter just 3 weeks, I was already feeling significantly better. I also started asserting my dietary requirements at work. It didn’t always work, but I found one person at the company who helped me by making sure we’d have salads without grains or dairy when possible and would order appropriate food for me when I was working on special project teams on the weekend. Then it happened… in less than a month I lost 20lbs. Despite all the initial challenges I was making it work!

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A good cheat day.

I’m very lucky to have a wife that works harder at this than I do… because I can’t cook worth a damn. She is the reason this is working for me. It was working fast, too. My clothes were already fitting looser and my ‘summer of weddings’ was upon me. My first wedding was a ‘fat guy in a GIANT coat’ debacle. But it was working, by mid July of last year, with only 6 weeks or so into it, I was 55lbs down from my worst weight and 30lbs down since starting. My goal weight at the time was a lofty 205, my doctor stepped in and said I should be at 247. Little did he know that I would blow by that in short order, and then… a Whole30 for August. No weight charting, uber strict paleo… no cheating… except that we did cheat and it was TOTALLY WORTH IT… and then we tried it again and it really worked. I noticed that my appearance was getting tighter… particularly with my manboobs. Another thing that was happening quickly was that my high blood pressure was disappearing.

The Whole30 ended in a great success. I was nearing 50lbs lost since starting my adventure and almost 75lbs since my worst. I really started to feel it. That 50lb mark came shortly after. I was feeling fantastic, but I was still up over 40″ around my waist. I had bought some “Challenge pants” to push me. To help push me, my wife and I embarked on a Whole52 starting in October and ending at Thanksgiving. We figured we needed to prep our bodies for the onslaught of holiday feeding. 240lbs came shortly after… I was back to my high school weight… and I still had some clothes from High School to demonstrate. We did end up surviving ThanksgivingBy December, I had started posting less on here and moved primarily to facebook for my more ‘microupdates’. I left the blog for big posts like my FIRST 5K! It felt great to be able to complete this, even though I didn’t run it to it’s entirety.

The Happiest Family on Earth

The Happiest Family on Earth

Then the major goal happened. 100lbs down since my worst. I had blown past my 40″ goal pants right into a set of 36s. My wife and I reached our goal weights and part of a contract I had with her was that when she reached her goal weight, we would go to Disney World. We went, and we tried to stay paleo… for a few hours. Eventually we gave in and went full fat-American-Tourist mode to see what would happen to us. Luckily, we only packed on about 8 or 9 lbs in our extended stay (thanks to the Blizzard at home). However, when we got back and went back to a full strict paleo, I lost the weight in a few days and suffered from a fainting spell which claimed my glasses and gashed my skull. To this day we have no real answer as to why this happened. Low blood sugar is still the explanation despite me never HAVING it the entire time.

In April, I declared our Paleo Adventure over. It had become our lifestyle now and was less an adventure. However, now I’m thinking that I need to reinvigorate myself and get back on the wagon. I feel that I’ve been slipping badly and my scale is showing it. This morning I weighed in at 229lbs. That’s up 13lbs since my best weight on this. That’s a LOT. I’ve been cheating more and more. It’s time to get back on the wagon and do it right again. It’s time to go into Year 2. The Primal Empire Strikes Back!

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The Paleo Adventure is over

*dramatic pause*

I’ll get it right out of the way, I’m not giving up on being paleo… but the adventure of eating paleo is over. It has slowly transitioned into just a regular way of life and has been this way for the past few months more or less. At this point it’s more about occasionaly discipline and reminders to “not eat that” or occasionally repeating in my head “no dairy today, no dairy today” and less occasionally “no chocolate today”. The adventurous part of eating paleo is over. Now it’s just life. This is mainly why I haven’t been posting lately. It’s gotten ‘boring’ so to speak. But the ideal diet is the one that isn’t, right?

I still get comments in person about how amazing this worked in such a short amount of time. My father has decided to start transitioning to paleo as well. He got something called the PaleoBurn. I’m not familiar with it but more power to him. I’m curious how he’ll deal with the loss of beer. I think he’s been cutting back on that pretty significantly and has moved more toward red wine. It’s a pretty big change for a 62 year old to make and he attributes it to my success. To me, that’s amazing that I could do something to influence my father so much. Of course, I think it’s a combination of my wife’s amazing weight loss and my own. My mother in law even ‘shows us off’ to her friends. I think she’s trying to transition to a paleo diet as well.

My wife is still full bore with the weight loss. She’s doing another challenge right now. I’ve recently started working a new shift which gets me home much earlier and also gets my day started around 5am now. Once I settle into my new shift, I’m going to use that first half hour of my day to work out at work (we have a gym).

Today’s Weigh In – 217lbs

Also, how about a comparison family photo! One of these is from 2011 and one is from 2013… I’ll let you guess which is which.

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100lbs later.

Well, it’s that time again. Major milestone in weight for me. 225lbs. I obtained this weight a few weeks ago, but figured I’d wait to see if I could maintain it through the holidays. Well, I can safely say that I’ve kept it off for about 2 weeks now and I’m 224lbs (101kg, 16st).

That’s a loss of 76lbs in 6 months and 101lbs since my heaviest weight ever.

I decided to go try on some new pants. I grabbed some 40x32s and some 38x32s. I figured I’d start with the 38s and move up to the 40s. The 38s went on without any issue. Then I gave them a space check… lots of room. Hmm, there’s no way I could be down to a 36. 36×32 is like, 8th grade pant size for me. Sure enough, I walked out of Old Navy with a pair of 36x32s (which actually aren’t even that snug) and an XL shirt (which is a BIT roomy, but lets me move around comfortably). I’m still flabberghasted. I ran into a high school friend and he even remarked that it looks like I’ve lost a lot of weight.

I saw the doctor last week and when he saw my weight on his scale (226 with clothes on) he asked how much more I planned on losing. I told him I’ve easily got another 10-20lbs of loose skin and fat that could probably come off. He said I should shoot for 215… not 205. I guess we’ll see.

Better start a monthly clothing budget. Most of my pants are still 42s… and VERY loose.

This is down from a 48×30!

Ok on to the photos. Clothed first, semi-naked after and a very special 4 shot composite at the very end!

225lbs, 36x32s, XL shirt.

225lbs, 36x32s, XL shirt.

225lbs, 36x32s, XL shirt.

225lbs, 36x32s, XL shirt.

Semi naked ahead.

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The long-con.

235 and in a shirt I bought in 1999 that NEVER fit.

I’m feeling pretty good about myself lately. I’ve settled into a solid 235ish pounds and I look a feel a million times better than I did in June. However it’s a bit of a double-edged sword. It’s now come to a head where in order for me to lose more weight I need to shift into high gear and start working out and becoming more strict… however I feel like I’m falling into worse habits and actually maintaining 235lbs. So the problem now is that I feel like I’m convincing myself that 235 is fine… but in reality there’s still a LOT of fat left in my gut that I’d like to get rid of… like a gunny sack of fat.

I blame this on a few things. I’m getting settled into my new diet and I’ve accepted what I can and cannot do. I’m seeing that even while sticking to a strictly regimented program (like Whole30) has it’s benefits in my health, the stress it was causing me wasn’t worth the few extra pounds. I think I could do it again, but I’d have to really prepare for it better. Primal is great, but there are pitfalls in eating dairy… like nearly choking on a piece of cheese yesterday. That was embarrassing. Then there’s the other niggling issues like the dreaded BUTTHURT. I’m still finding it difficult to inject myself with a proper amount of fibre to soak up all the protein. I’m still too meat focused when it comes to meal time. I think I need to start following the rule of hand when it comes to meat: don’t eat more than you can hold in one hand… I either made that up or I’m confusing it with something else. I know there’s something about meat tenderness being equivalent to bits of your hand. The other problem I’m having is that the seasons are changing and I’m lightly affected by the lack of light and the temperature change I’ve always tended to go into a more hibernation mode around this time. The opposite needs to happen. I need to get out there and work out… but I have no idea how people run when it’s this effing cold out… I better get started because I’ve got a 5K in like 3 weeks.

I’m having a hard time finding time to blog and I’m wondering if that has anything to do with my general malaise with the diet. I’ve not plateaued, because I’m not doing everything I COULD be doing. I’m settled into what could LATER be considered a ‘maintenance’ mode of eating, but I need more than that right now.

Please be sure to follow the facebook page. I tend to update that a bit more frequently for the short stuff.

 

Why it’s not always good to be able to fit into your high school clothes

Ok, 240lbs. Minus 60 from start. Let’s get right to it. Here’s some awful photos of me posing in clothes from the mid to late 90s.

Though before we do that: Progress photos from August and from the start of this.

Ok, not just yet. First some now photos in regular clothes

And from the side

The million Nike shirt… even the stripes say Nike.

Over the shoulder Hilfiger shot…

I don’t even know…

Swagger?

This was my favorite shirt ever… I regret everything.

Semi-naked progress shots below

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The High School Weight Conundrum

So, I’m down to 242lbs. This was a weight I was at in High School. The unfortunate bit about that is that: I was fat in high school.

Looking in the mirror shows one major thing: while I’ve lost a TON of weight (nearly 60lbs since June and over 80 since my worst) I’m still pretty fat. My goal weight of 225lbs looks totally achievable now (and soon) but the problem is: I don’t think that’s enough. I’m still be-tittled… my gut is still there.

It’s all “Better” but it’s not “Great”. There’s a lot more work to be done. Specifically: exercise.

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The Thin 40-inch Line – Challenge Pants

The memeification of this site continues

A few weeks ago I bought some ‘Challenge pants’. 40x32s. When I put them on in the store, I was able to button them but there was some serious muffin topping going on. It was actually quite comical and I wish I’d take some detailed photos. I was round about 250lbs at that point but felt like I could get them to fit soon.

Fast forward to 247lbs and I’m getting ready to go to the Highland Festival as mentioned in my last post. My wife suggests I try them on and see how they fit. I figure that I’ve only lost 3lbs and that’s probably not enough. To my surprise they fit with minimal muffin topping and off to the races I went. I spent the entire weekend in them and drove the 250miles back and forth with nary a discomfort. It was rather surprised by the whole thing.

I felt really good in them. They were a good fit through the legs. I think I looked pretty good too.

All this talk about muffin tops… here’s a recipe I googled.

Now, a quick discussion about cheating over the weekend. We actually maintained pretty well until we… actually ate some food beyond our snacks. We had Scotch Eggs, which are rumored to be Paleo. At least until you cover them in mashed potatoes and sausage gravy. That was about the extent of our cheating while we were at the festival. Of course, you have to eat after that, so off to the Common Man for our 6th Anniversary Dinner.

We started by looking at the Gluten Free menu. What we eventually ordered started off as paleo. My wife had a 12oz prime rib and I had the pot roast with vegetables. We did have white potatoes with our meal. My son had chicken cutlets which we shared with him. Then came dessert. I have no idea what my wife got because I was face deep in a hot fudge sundae with my kid. My wife felt like garbage for the rest of the weekend, I more or less shrugged it off with only mild nausea and phlegm. She feels better today and my tally for the weekend was +1 lbs. Back to 248lbs.

At least my pants still fit.

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