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The Blood Sugar Solution 10-day Detox

For the past 10 days, I’d been subscribed to “The Blood Sugar Solution 10-Day Detox Diet“. We also purchased “The Blood Sugar Solution 10-Day Detox Diet Cookbook” to compliment it. Suffice to say it worked. Common sense says: “Of course it did, there’s no reason why it wouldn’t.” I lost 17lbs in 10 days. I’m now at 256lbs. But now I hear people asking: “wait,what? Last time you checked in your weight you were 268.” Well, people… let me tell you a little bit about the weekend BEFORE I started this detox. Friday was a gala feast at Naumkeag Ordinary in Salem in which I ate 3 cheeseburgers (no buns), a few appetizers (that were actually pretty paleo) a half a bottle of white wine and a glass of beer. Saturday was a lovely birthday party in which I had a few bottles of cider, a few shots of hard alcohol, a lot of my wife’s cheese dip and 2 slices of pizza. Sunday morning finished me off at O’Neills of Salem where we brought a friend out to his first Full Irish Breakfast. My wife, my son and I ordered 1 each. Then when my son couldn’t finish his, we split it between my wife and I and ate it. By Monday morning weigh in, I was 273lbs. That Friday morning before the weekend I was 263lbs. For a 3 day gain of 10lbs.

Toronto Mayor Rob Ford

I know buddy, I know…

One part of this detox involved a detox of social media and news. There was simply not a better time for me to start this in the face of what’s going on this election season (I’ll stop there before I alienate people or start stressing myself out…). It was definitely nice to get  away from the stresses of facebook, the 24-hour news cycle and a lot of general negativity that was surrounding me.

The main part of it is simple paleo eating and daily workouts. The basis for the plan is to remove all sugar, caffeine, grains, starchy vegetables and beans from your diet. The main idea is that sugar is as addictive as drugs. There’s a lot of exposition that explains how your brain’s addiction centers actually get more activity from sugar and even artificial sweeteners than it does from cocaine. It’s a lot of fun science if you’re into that and it’s mostly sound from my perspective. It gets a little preachy and if you’re already paleo or primal, this might not be the plan for you. If you were paleo/primal and fell off the wagon, this one should hitch you right back on. If you were NEITHER of these things this is a GREAT starting point. It ignores the ‘cult of paleo’ and cuts right to the meat of things. Sugar is killing you and making you do things you don’t want to do. He coins the term ‘diabesity’ in this book as diabetes caused by obesity. I know when I first started my journey, I was definitely in that category and that’s what got me to start it in the first place: I didn’t want to get diabetes.

If you’re familiar with the Whole30 or a Whole9, the food is nearly identical. The one interesting thing about the Blood Sugar Solution is that they NEVER ONCE CALL IT PRIMAL/PALEO despite it being pretty much 100% to a T. I think the MAIN reason for this is because there’s also vegetarian options that include things that wouldn’t work as paleo. So good on them. It also distances themselves from the paleo movement which can be a turnoff for a lot of people as it has become a little militant. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve gotten someone commenting on my facebook page about how something I ate wasn’t 100% paleo or primal. I get it, I’m not perfect. The food in the cookbook and the plan was great, but the recipes were not very well laid out. Make sure you read and re-read a recipe before you start in on it. I can’t tell you how many times I screwed something up because half of the recipe was on one page and the other was on the opposite page and I’m scrambling to wash raw fish off my hands so I can flip a page back to see what herbs he’s suggesting I toss in with it.

The daily regiment is pretty simple: Weigh yourself, measure yourself, take your blood pressure, take your blood sugar, do 30minutes of exercise (I did incline walking), PGX Fiber pill, multi vitamin, Vitamin D, fish oil and a smoothie from the book. I stuck with this lovely concoction that was made with a Kiwi, 1/4 of an avocado, chia seeds, kale, water, ice and mint. My wife and son hated it, so that’s what I stuck with so they could enjoy theirs without me digging into their stash of ingredients. That said, there’s was superior to mine, but I enjoyed mine enough. The good news is that it really did stave off hunger. Also, the going cold-turkey on sugar really had an immediate effect on my cravings. I wasn’t going to the kitchen and chowing down on things I shouldn’t. I wasn’t even opening the counters at work to LOOK. I also stopped taking my blood sugar after the 3rd day. It was in the low 80s and the pain of pricking my finger was impeding my work as my fingers ached all day. My blood pressure was thankfully normal before and throughout.

Lunches were a variety of options, but I stuck with the least stressful: salad and protein. I made a mixed green salad with carrots and tomatoes and slapped 2 hard boiled eggs on it and my wife’s homemade greek dressing (which is paleo). Snacks would be a small handful of nuts (about 12). Dinner was varied and we stuck to the plan for 6 days. By the 7th day, we got a little more adventurous and looked at the cookbook for ideas as some of the suggestions for days 7-10 didn’t have us excited. I will tell you now, it’s mostly chicken and SMALL fish (ie, no tuna). There was one red meat meal that we ate on day 8 where I got a REALLY nice aged ribeye that my wife and I split and enjoyed thoroughly. The good news is the chicken meals were fantastic. There was a great chicken soup lunch option that we made twice. There were some great cod cakes (which I massacred when I attempted the 2nd time we ate it) and some other good fish suggestions. I wasn’t in love with the first day fish suggestion, but that might have been because I bought shitty salmon.

stupid-human-brain_o_1224189Overall, I was very happy with the food. The exercise was good too. Of course I lost weight, that’s what happens when you eat right and exercise. I did have recurring nightmares of cheating badly on the plan though. It was very strange. Everyday I’d wake up with a stomach full of guilt because my brain ate a bunch of pizza and beer while it slept. Stupid human brain. I’m pretty sure we’re going to continue to make this kind of food for another 90 day at least. Maybe make some adjustments to things so we can have steak a little more and fish a little less.

There’s also a journaling aspect to the project as well. There’s daily questions and a daily log of your food, weight, measurements, etc… It can be great for someone starting out on a paleo journey, but for me it was a lot of questions about how your dealing with your cravings and sugar addiction… and for me it wasn’t dramatic. I just stopped craving them immediately. Also, I absolutely hate writing with a pen and paper. I wish I’d just kept an online log of it. It’s a lot easier for me to jot down notes on my phone or something than to constantly be searching for that pad of paper and pen.

There was one thing on the detox that I hated: Detox baths. First off, I’m not a ‘bath’ person. At least not in my own house. I’m pretty tall and my bath doesn’t really fill very much before it hits the overflow drain… which has a bad seal and leaks into my downstairs living room. So the only bits of my body that get submerged in the water are my hips, butt and ankles… and my legs if I sit bolt upright. In the long run it makes my back and ass hurt and I tend to get cold because most of me is above the warm water. I tried to read in the tub to some minor success, but mostly I was annoyed to be lightly simmering in my shitty tub. I should have bought one of these: Bottomless Bath Overflow Drain Cover – RecyclableThen I could have gotten somewhere. I should also probably replace that gasket…

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I know buddy, I know…

Otherwise I’m pretty happy with the results, the food and the plan. I’m probably going to stick to limiting my facebook usage, reducing the notifications from facebook in general, avoiding the news cycle and trying to get away from my phone and computer more. I did break away from one thing today and probably JUST for today: the morning smoothie. I missed eggs and bacon, so I got some with some peppers and onions (instead of homefries) this morning. It wasn’t as good as I had hoped… so I’ll probably go back to smoothies tomorrow. I also miss the taste of coffee and black tea, but not the caffeine that comes with it. I’ll need to figure that one out too.

So, here we are again. At the beginning of a new journey… a new, old journey. Next time I’m going to discuss my concerns about how this goes forward, my plans for what happens next and my major concerns with things like going out with friends to bars and restaurants and parties.

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10 Day Blood Sugar Detox

By the time you read this, I’ll be engaged in the 10 Day Blood Sugar Detox. Part of this detox is a 10 day fasting of social media, news and screens that aren’t work related. The plan is a very strict set of paleo-style meals and a daily regiment of exercise and relaxation.

I’m hoping it will help me break the habits I’d been forming.

See you in 10 days with a report.

Being More Funner as a Challenge.

Lately I’ve been trying to be more mindful and to have more fun with my family and more fun in general. I recently picked up the mantra of “More Funner” from a hat I bought.  The problem is that sometimes that puts me at odds with healthy eating choices. I’m lucky enough to live in a city that has a diverse food situation and wonderful cooks. This leads to things like giant parties that involve foods that are fantastic but not always on my diet. At that point, I’m left with a challenge:

  1. Do I enjoy the food offered as it sits and make up for it later
    1. And how do you ‘make up for it later’?
  2. Do I enjoy the foods I can eat and leave the ones I can’t every time?
    1. and if there are no foods there that I can eat, do I simply avoid all options or do I go back to the top there and ‘make up for it later’?
  3. Do I avoid the temptations entirely and miss out on a fun day with friends by simply not going.

Ideally, I’d like to start with option 2, then revert to option 1 if I need to. I really don’t want to become a hermit and miss out on some REALLY fun things. Case in point, I went to a Goat and Pig Roast Block Party on Saturday with my wife. You can see photos HERE from the wonderful John Andrews at Creative SalemThe event was run by our local Back Alley Bacon speakeasy (yes, we have one of those…), Bambolina, and Notch Brewing. This was a perfect opportunity for Option 2, however I opted for Option 1. I had a few beers from Notch with my wife, I had some baked beans and some mac & cheese with my pork and goat and I indulged in the wine ice luge a few times. I also ate a fun size candy bar that I helped knock out of a pig pinata.

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The wine was technically paleo… © Creative Salem

So today, I’m thinking, how do I make up for that? I’ve decided, for this one instance I’m going to fast today. At least until dinner. Then I’ll have my dinner and start working out again starting tomorrow morning. I’d like to have my ‘make up for that’ scenario worked out a little more though.

Here’s the thing: I have no regrets from the fun I had on Saturday. It was great. My wife and I had a blast and the food was awesome and we got to hang out with friends in a situation that may only come up once a year. I ate right the day after (save for a gluten free bun with my hamburger) and felt more-or-less OK physically. The beans hit me hard at night and I felt bloated and gassy and I did have some pains caused by probably the beer (I didn’t drink to excess, maybe 3-4 beers over the course of 5 hours).

My goals are to get back down to 225lbs by my birthday (late July). So I need to figure out my food situation and how I’m going to handle temptations without becoming unfun or beating myself up to badly after the fact. I need to get active and start moving more and I want that activity to be fun.

I want a return to form this year. I want to be better, but I also want to juggle fun into it and a remediation plan when I come off the rails or when I plan to do something not on diet.

60 days to get back on track.

Ok, I’m doing this. I’m writing a blog post.

So, after continual failure to get back on track, I decided that I love myself, my wife and my son enough to do it like I did last time. That’s what was my driving force when I started. It took me a while to figure out what my spark was. It wasn’t looking better or feeling better for JUST myself. It was doing it for my family.

So, the good news. This is not a “I’m going to make these changes” post. This is an “I’m doing these things already” post. I started this on Saturday which makes this day7. Paleo diet is a given. My “cheats” so far have been a little cheese on a burger wrap and a gluten free, dairy free cookie.

do-you-even-liftThe other piece of the puzzle, which has always been a problem is “working out.” While I’ve been fooling myself with thinking my walking commute and hockey once in a while was enough, I decided to finally go get a gym membership at my YMCA. Now I have to pay for something… which means if I don’t use it, I’m going to feel deep seated Scottish-guilt pains for not using something I’ve paid for. And using it I have! I’ve gone twice this week. I’m focusing on my legs and abs for strength training and 20-30 minutes of cycling, rowing or the Precor Adaptive Motion Trainer (which is this really cool thing that lets me ‘run’ in the stride I actually take). Here’s a quick rundown of what I’ve done so far:

Active Day 1 (Monday) – Gym

  • 20 minutes of rowing

    I really enjoy the sauna...

    I really enjoy the sauna…

  • 20 Minutes on the AMT
  • Leg Press
    • 2 sets of 10 reps @ 360lbs
    • 3 sets of 10 reps @ 270lbs
  • Leg press calf extensions
    • 3 sets of 15 reps @ 180lbs
  • Inner thigh machine
    • 3 sets of 10 reps @ 75lbs
  • Outer thigh machine
    • 3 sets of 10 reps @ 56lbs
  • 15 minutes in the sauna

Active Day 2 (Tuesday) – Hockey

Active Day 3 (Thursday) – Gym

  • 20 minutes on the AMT
  • 15 minutes on the bike
  • Leg Press
    • 3 sets of 10 reps @ 360lbs
  • Seated Calf Raise
    • 3 sets of 15 reps @ 90lbs
  • Abdominal crunch machine
    • 3 sets of 10 reps @ 125lbs
  • 20 minutes in the sauna

So, yes, a lot of legs. There’s a reason for that. There’s a reason I’m giving myself 60 days. There’s actually 2, but the one I’ll discuss is this: hockey. The muscles I’m currently working on are the ones I need to skate with longevity and power. I’ll focus on my upper body soon as well and I’m always looking for suggestions on good exercises, so if you have any, let me know.

I’m hoping to drop 20lbs in these next 60 days but mostly I’m looking to increase my lower body strength, stamina and flexibility. I’d like to really get my shoulders, pecs and abs in order and tone my arms up a bit (I don’t really need ‘big guns’ to play hockey).

Then we can discuss the OTHER reason I’m giving myself 60 days.

Wish me luck and send me some workout ideas for me to try.

What am I doing wrong?

Sledding - January 2015. 245lbs.

Sledding – January 2015. 245lbs.

245. Right back to where I started this year. I was doing so well and then it all fell apart. I was eating right, I was getting more exercise and then a few bad days over a few weeks and I’m right back to where I started.

The big question is: why? What was I doing when I first started this journey so long ago that I was able to stick with it? What was different in my mind that allowed me to stay on the path? How do I get there again? It’s very frustrating to me because I’m thinking back to that time and realizing I was a stronger willed person at that point. Parties, stress, temptation: all under control. I was able to get through those circumstances without eating poorly. Now? I’ll eat too much pizza, drink too much and feel like crap afterwards.

People always bag on any “diet” like Paleo as ‘non-sustainable’. That’s bullshit though. Anything is sustainable if you put your mind to it. It’s only as sustainable as your mind is strong. So, how do I get back there? How to I become strong willed and stick to the plan like I did when I first started. I should be able to do this again.

Perhaps I should start at the beginning and have my younger Primal Fatso self show me the way. I’ll start at the beginning and hope that my old self can reinspire this new one.

I’ve put on 20lbs since January 2014… It’s all just terribly disappointing that I can’t stick to it and it’s no one’s fault but my own. It’s certainly a mix of laziness and not caring about myself. I need to start caring about myself and my family again by focusing on my health again.

I sound like a broken record… it’s time to start over again… for like the 9th time. But this time I’ll start here: Starting Point

Summer 2010

Summer 2010

Hopefully I can get back to here: 100 lbs later

The Happiest Family on Earth

The Happiest Family on Earth

Wish me luck.

1 Year Off Paleo. The Battle to Get Back to 215 and Eventually Less.

Remember last June when I said I needed a kickstart? Let me tell you what happened next.

In July of 2012 I’d mentioned that I was under a lot of stress and needed AN INTERVENTION. Work was causing me a lot of stress. There were tons of things going on around the house. I was barely making enough money to get by. Working out remains a problem. I did get a bike and I sorted that all out but I don’t use it enough. I really killed myself when I said that the Paleo Adventure is over. That’s when things went bad. I’d started playing hockey but the summer season is sporadic.

Then there’s just the summer malaise in general. I did NOT survive this summer well. I went to parties and gorged on food and drink. I ate out with little regard for health and finances. It was bad. Even this past weekend was a mess of bad food choices but good times. Now I’m 240lbs again. October 2012. The last time I was that heavy. It took 2 months to drop to 230. It took another 1 month to drop to 225lbs. It took me a little more than a MONTH to go from 229 to 240… This is the sad reality of life. 3 months to lose weight that can be put back on in 1.

Here I am in a burger eating contest this summer... No, those aren't gluten free... I came in 2nd... (photo courtesy John Andrews @ socialpalatesphotography.com/)

Here I am in a burger eating contest this summer… No, those aren’t gluten free… I came in 2nd… (photo courtesy John Andrews @ socialpalatesphotography.com)

So, what’s next? Well a few things have changed in my life. I’ve gotten a new job that doesn’t feed me breakfast and lunch daily. They do have a lot of ‘snacks’ but none that are good choices. They do have some nuts and fruit, but that’s about it. I’m surrounded by food choices, but most aren’t paleo/primal. I’m making more money, so that stress is alleviated a little. They pay for a fitness plan, which means I can’t claim that I can’t afford to go the gym. I go in later which leaves more time in the morning as well to go workout. So I just have to get off my lazy ass and go do it.

I need to find a new way of life that is like my old paleo way of life. I need to prepare for things better. I need to change my mindset. This is a new adventure. My family needs to work towards a goal. A reward of some sort. Perhaps we need another Disney Adventure. We need harder, stricter goals to reach if we want to get there. We need to find a way to keep to a goal AFTER the fact as well. I need to be more active. I need to get my mind around being in control again. I need to just stop what I’m doing now and do the right thing NOW.

Here are the numbers for this new starting point:

240lbs.

Squeezing into my 36x32s.

Large shirts are tight.

On belt notch 2.

Hockey hockey hockey!

So, when I started writing this (3/20) I was still 225ish. I had made plans to start a Whole30 on 3/24 and decided to have a weekend of ‘whatever’. It started with an all you can eat flounder fry at Woodmans. By Sunday morning I was up to 234lbs. Jesus. So, just when you’ve planned for a healthy month, don’t cheat up until you start… that’s my advice. In fact, if you’re planning on doing a healthy month or something… just start it right then. My wife has invited me into her secret circle (Hi ladies!) to help get me motivated and back on track. I’m hoping it will restart my interest in sticking to the plan and being healthy.

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Aww, lookit that little fella. Age 10. Height 5’2″, weight 120lbs

Today, I’d like to talk about hockey. I’ve been going HARD to get back into hockey lately. I’ve updated most of my equipment and spent a lot more ice time getting better. I’m working on dry land to better my stickhandling and I’m trying to get at least one game in a week. In pushing myself so much, I’ve found that my body can’t keep up with my enthusiasm. My first shift out the last time was like 9 minutes (about 7 minutes too much) and the only reason I’d gotten off was because I pulled my hip. I’ve been finding myself pulling my left hip pretty consistently which ruins my game. The way I shoot tends to load that left hip up too much and then for the next few days I’m in pain. It hurts most when crossing my left leg over my right, left ankle to right knee. I looked to my wife for advice and she’s recommended that I do more yoga. I’ve finally found that thing that makes me want to get in better shape though. At this point I’m doing yoga to up my hockey game. Once the weather clears up a little more, I’m going to start doing more running and biking to get my stamina up and I’m going to be doing as much yoga as I can stomach so that I can get that hip flexibility back.

Quite the growth spurt. Age - 12. Height 5'9". Weight 165lbs

Quite the growth spurt. Age – 12. Height 5’9″. Weight 165lbs

My goal is to eventually be able to play back at Low-A/High-B-level hockey (I’m currently in C, but I am excelling at it, despite my mobility issues.) There’s 4 levels of hockey: A being college-level, B high-school level, C Recreational, D Instructional. When I played, I was a big dumb bruiser of a player. In senior leagues, you can’t hit anymore. My game was entirely based around beating the tar out of people at every chance. Now I’m forced to be a better player and not just a goon. Also, with the way pickup games go, I don’t always just play defence. I tend to try to play farther back, but occasionally I have to play forward or centre. It’s a different kind of game for me and it’s in my best interest to become a better player by working out off the ice.

Beyond that, I’m also trying to organize a local street hockey league in my neighborhood. I’m hoping this takes off as well, but I need to invest in some nets… Here’s to hoping that the hockey bug sticks. If I can get 2-3 games in a month I’ll be happy and hopefully in the best shape I’ve ever been in.

Age 15. 6'2", 230lbs

Age 15. 6’2″, 230lbs

Surviving the Holidays (Not)

Holy shit, a new post? And you thought I’d given up on making posts here. Well, you were wrong. I’ve got some guilt to lay out on the table and facebook ain’t gonna cut it.

So, the holidays are over. Things were eaten. Lots of things. Things that aren’t necessarily paleo/primal. Lots of things. That’s what New Year’s Resolutions are for right? So you can eat crap during the holidays without as much guilt. Granted it is a special time and special things are made and sometimes it’s nice to enjoy the holidays you’re used to. The problem is doing it for that one day in November and that other day in December (assuming you celebrate Christmas) and not doing it for the entirety between those days and UP to New Year’s Day. I failed at that part.

For my failure to keep on the line I ballooned up to 232lbs again. Certain clothing doesn’t fit quite so well and, generally speaking, I felt like crap. Again, we found that when we ate poorly as a family we felt poorly as a family. Now for the good news by way of bad news: We ALL got that stomach bug. My wife and son had it since Christmas and I just got it myself. Why is that good news? Well, all that weight I gained over the holidays was reset due to… um… how do I put this lightly… peeing out of my butt. Was that subtle enough?

Subtle as flushing a brick

That puts me back down to 224lbs. That’s the weight I was at last Christmas. Last Christmas I was still on a downward trend. I’d survived the holidays appropriately. On Thanksgiving I was 232 and by January I was 220. The last time I’d updated my weight chart was June 8, 2013. I was 219lbs. So, I’m 5lbs off from that weight and I’m 8lbs off from my best on this plan (216lbs). I still fit in my 36/32 pants but my 34-36 kilt is a little snug.

So, let’s get onto this little stomach bug thing… without the graphic imagery. One thing that I have to do is try to starve it out. The day I got it, I’d eaten regularly and paid dearly for it (though, I didn’t realize I had gotten it). My wife suggested the old BRAT diet. Bananas, Rice, Applesauce, Toast/Tea. While this isn’t paleo, the idea is not to GORGE on these things but to eat JUST enough to not be starving. I can also suggest trying Rudi’s bread. It’s gluten free, but made with rice. It’s rather good. I can’t tell the difference between it and regular bread. However, while I’m at work I’ll be having regular toast (with a little cinnamon). So, wish me luck. ‘

On a side note, what the hell do you do as an adult if you crap your pants? These are questions I didn’t think I’d not know the answer to at age 32. Well, at least it didn’t happen, but there were moments on my train commute I was worried.

So, assuming I stay on this diet for a few days there’s a solid chance I’ll be back in the teens whether I like it or not… I think I’ll enjoy being back in the teens, just saying. This will also be a re-learning experience. You may remember the ‘Honor Hunger’ things I’ve done in the past. The BRAT diet is all about starving the bug out of you and only eating just enough to survive. It will also remind me to behave. The consequences here are bad. Eat poorly, make bad choices and you’ll have immediate repercussions as well as making this little sickness longer and longer.

So, there’s going to be another goal post soon. It’s probably going to be a rehash of my existing one… Look better, feel better… work out or some shit.

Until next time.

January 9 weigh in – 224lbs.

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32/205

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m a person who works best with tangible goals. Numbers are tangible to me and that’s what I’m going to aim for. My goal, by July 2014 is to reach either 205lbs or a 32″ waist. As of today (10/14/13) that puts me 4″ out or 20lbs. I’ve been having a really tough time lately sticking to the plan. I need to reorganize and get back on track the best way I know how: GOALS.

I should probably start with a proper measurement and not just my current pant size, as pants can stretch. I’ll try to do this tomorrow morning. I’ve also decided to reintroduce some minor grains (like rice and occasionally rolled oats) but otherwise stick to a paleo diet. Of course, we threw our rice cooker out like the week before we decided to put white rice back into our diet… so fuck me, right?

Ladies shoes? Fuck it, I needed my Pumps! So what if I’m a white kid who has no interest in basketball whatsoever…

In other news, I’m running a 5K this week. I went out and splurged on some fancy running shoes. Brooks Ghost 6. I’ve been a Saucony Trail shoe guy for the past few years (Excursion TRs) but the problem I have had with them is that they wear poorly on pavement (which they should as a trail shoe). This was the first time I spent 3 figures on shoes since the Reebok Pumps in 4th grade (which I wanted so bad that I settled on a woman’s version just to get them). These are fancy ass shoes. I got fitted at a proper running store (Greater Boston Running Company – Swampscott) where they actually had me on a treadmill with a camera focused on my feet (apparently I’m neutral). Great service there and they didn’t over-sell me on a shoe. 

My bike is working out great. I’ve finally got it set up properly. You can see it’s progress here. I really need to start putting more miles per trip on it. RIght now it’s about 2.5-3 miles a day. I need to start prepping for cold and slimy weather as I’d like to ride it in foul weather (that means fenders and non-slick tires). I find my issue with pulling long rides is again a matter of time. My weeks are very full and my weekends are packed with family stuff. Luckily, October in Salem is a good excuse to go for LONG walks around town because driving is an abomination to all things vehicular in nature (except bikes). I’d like to get a home trainer for the bike so I can ride in the house when it’s gnarly out. 

So, goals: 32″ waist or 205lbs. Weight wise I’d like to take it 5lbs at a time. 10 months until July now. 20lbs and 4″ to go. 2lbs or .4″ per month. When you break it down, it’s not that bad and totally feasible. Stick to the plan, run and ride more… get it done.

I need an intervention

I’ve been super stressed about a lot of things in my life over the past few months. Regular stuff, nothing serious (money, career, work, etc…). It’s become sort of overwhelming and my health has gone into this bad autopilot. I walk around mindlessly through work and have been finding myself shoveling non-paleo food into my mouth. I’ve had cookies, bread rolls, yogurt, ice cream, cereal. And it’s not just once. I think the past 2 weeks I’ve had at least one bad thing a DAY. And it’s starting to show. I’m back up to 223 and I don’t LOOK good. It looks like I’m bloated. Now, I’m not GORGING on these foods (that’s pretty much my only saving grace here), but I am falling off the plan. When I’m mindful of my trajectory, I’m good… but every so often I’ll just go through and be like “yeah, fuck it, it’s just this one thing…” and then it happens the next day and the next.

Again, I turn to the blog to out myself on this in the hopes that this will put me in check.  I’ve recently heard from one of my readers who has lost 30lbs in 3 months thanks to my blog (well, mainly thanks to themselves doing the plan AND exercising vigorously… actually entirely thanks to them doing that, but they do attribute my blog for giving them that kick in the ass to get going). And here I am, eating fucking cookies and ice cream. Seriously?

And that’s another thing. The working out thing. I don’t know what to do here. I can’t wrap my mind around a solid, CONSISTENT plan for working out. I’m in a rut when it comes to my energy and I think that’s one of the main reasons I’m having problems with my eating. I don’t really know what to do. I wish I could get my mind around ‘the run’ and go run. I’ve gone for ‘runs’ in terms of running a half mile or so to the train here and there, but that’s with my work bag and in my work clothes. What I really want to do is punch things. I wish I had a heavy bag, but there’s two problems with that idea.
1) There is NO place IN my house for that
2) I could put it outside, but it would look kinda trashy to my neighbors AND it wouldn’t be useful when weather is a problem.

I could go to a boxing place, but I don’t have the money to do it right now. So the thing I need to be doing right now is finding a solution to what I can do with what I have. I’m just going to have to start biting the bullet and working out at work during my lunch break. I was ready to do it at one point when work was slowing down, but then 2 of the people on my 6 person team left and the work immediately increased to match.

Bicycling is another thing I love to do, but I don’t have a proper bike. I have my old BMX bike from 1996. It’s great for scooting around, but you can’t really get proper exercise on it. I do keep an eye out for cheap bicycles here and there, but I never find anything that’s reasonably good for short money. I’m not looking for anything special. To be honest, I’m looking for a GOOD piece of shit. What does that mean? Basically I’m looking for a name brand bike (like a Giant or a Specialized or a Trek) with quality parts that won’t break. I don’t need it to be new at all. I would even prefer it to be older because I like CroMoly steel bikes. I like hardtails. I like solid front forks. I grew up riding these and I don’t need any fancy technology. Now, I HAVE a bike like this at my father’s house (my old Giant) but it is in need of serious repair (the wheels are bent badly and the tires are cooked. The gearset is rusted and seized. The seat is destroyed. The headset is rusted (and it’s a quill stem). At this point it’s just a frame. it would cost more to repair it then just buying another bike. I’ve looked at ‘cheap’ bikes too… like Walmart/Target bikes. But the problem with them is that most of them have front suspension… and shitty suspension at that. I’d rather have NO suspension at all then some shitty front shock, but it seems like the only solid bikes that are for sale these days are actually MORE expensive. Eh, that’s enough about that. I’ll keep looking for a bike. I think I could get an hour of bike riding a night done if I found one. I know all the routes I’d take.

I’m not looking for sympathy or anything, I’m a fan of the Bob Newhart method:

I just need someone to tell me to stop it. I need to be reminded that I want to get BETTER, not worse. I need to be reminded that this isn’t over. This isn’t where I want to be. I want to be in BETTER shape.

I don’t want to go through life continuing to be this. I want to be better.

I just turned 32. I’m in the best shape I’ve been in a long time, but I’m not in the best shape I could be. I want my 30s to be the healthiest I’ve ever been. It’s time for me to intervene.